Mamahood 

In honor of Mother’s Day I ask all mamas out there to ask yourself these questions. Take your time and really reflect on what you appreciate about motherhood. Enjoy. ☺️

1. What was your first reaction when finding out?
Honestly, joy. I was so overwhelmed with joy that I didn’t really have any time to worry – at first. But even so, after the nerves, the worry, I knew that from that day onward I was going to be the best mommy this baby could ever have. Now that he’s here, I’m still filled with so much joy and love.

2. What was the hardest part about being pregnant?
I love, loved being pregnant. The hardest part about being pregnant, was when I finally became not pregnant. I found such a special sweetness in being able to carry life. In being able to feel those “flutters” that everyone can’t really seem to describe, to feeling Jeremiah’s wiggly butt moving around my tummy all day. I had a smooth pregnancy, so maybe that’s why I enjoyed it so much? I’m not really sure how I would have felt if I had a rough pregnancy; but one thing I can tell you is, I will never take being pregnant for granted. “How can you ever say anything negative about your body after you have felt the dancing of life from inside your womb?” – Amethyst Joy.

3. What was your most common food craving?
During the entire time of my pregnancy I constantly craved Mexican food, pickles, and good ‘ol Coca Cola. I know this sounds bad, but I probably, almost, had a coke everyday.. 👀

4. What were you doing when you went into labor?
My labor pains began on Christmas Eve and then got progressively stronger Christmas Day. So when my initial labor started, I was with family – which helped to kind of ease my mind off of the contractions that I kept calling cramps. 😂 Finally on the 26th of December, I went into the hospital. I wasn’t really doing anything, just at home doing last minute things for baby since I knew he would be coming soon!

5. What was your labor experience? Epidural? C-Section?
Hours of labor? Much like my pregnancy, it was smooth. I had to walk around the hospital for quite sometime feeling contraction after contraction, but once I was able to get into my room and received my epidural, labor wasn’t so bad. I went in around 6:00p.m on December 26th, and had my bebe December 27th at 8:29 a.m. So my “hospital” labor was just a little over 14 hours total. Not too bad for my first. 🙂

6. What were your first thoughts when you saw your baby?
“Wow, he’s mine.” He was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I was so in love with him the second the nurses were able to lay Jeremiah on my chest for our first skin-to-skin encounter. I remember him looking up at me, and me down at him. Our first connection felt so surreal. He was finally here, finally in my arms. I have never felt a love than that of my son. ❤

7. What is and how did you choose your baby’s name?
His name is Jeremiah Daniel Batin. We knew we wanted a biblical, strong first name for our first born son – Jeremiah. Doesn’t get much stronger than that! He is also named after his great-great grandpa, Daniel. Jeremiah Daniel. ☺️

8. What is the hardest thing about being a mom?
Oh, the things they don’t tell you about motherhood. And I don’t just mean the basics, or the actual depth of fatigue you’ll feel those first couple of months. For me the hardest part at first was my indentity. I went from a full time working,  22 year-old college student, girlfriend, to a MOM. Just like that. This total change of “identity” seemed to be the hardest for me. All this time I was nursing all night, not sleeping, constantly changing diapers, getting peed on, and, oh, did I mention not sleeping? It’s only been 4 months since I became a mother, and it’s still taking me time to be confident in the mother that I’m being. I don’t believe motherhood has a clear-cut path for everyone; We are all works in progress with our own struggles, needs, wants, and ways to make things work. You know I may not be that same working, 22 year-old college student, girfriend anymore, but I wish someone would have told me that this new me would come out of this all intact and more kick-ass than ever. I’m a mom, and all of a sudden life makes sense.

9. What is something your baby has done to make you laugh?
Oh gosh, Jeremiah has been making me laugh since he was in the womb 😂 It’s kind of funny because I never knew how much a baby would be able to crack me up. Jeremiah is 4 months already, and we laugh together all day. Jer is still trying to find his laugh at the moment, so his laughs are more like coughs – which makes me laugh even more! My child brings so much joy into my life – it’s incredible.

10. What is the most rewarding part about being a mother?
Every single day is rewarding. Being loved so unconditionally and loving him unconditionally right back. We learn something from each other everyday. I am there to teach him everything from learning how to grip his bottle, to teaching him how to play with toys, to learning how to eat. Jeremiah has taught me about patience, love, and about putting somebody else’s needs before my own. He is teaching me to be the best version of myself that I can be. Jeremiah definitely brings out the best in me.

11. How do you measure your success as a mother?
Well to start off with the predictable stuff: I want him to be happy, nurtured, successful, a good person. But as for my personal goal: I want to be able to parent Jeremiah in such a way that allows him to discover his authentic self. I don’t want to make a clone of myself, but rather help him develop his individual talents. I want to be able to provide a blank canvas for my son to which he can express his creativity. That’s a great thing to be able to say.

Motherhood is knowing joy, even while experiencing the hardest trials of life. With rarely a dull moment, I’ve experienced more adventure in mothering my son than I ever thought possible. Motherhood is my greatest achievement for sure.